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[--News--]
I'mma let you know ahead of time right now: I'm in a huge series of mood swings right now that it's not even funny. If it is to you, fine. Whatever. But now I've gotta go on a huge rant that means basically nothing to you, mmk?
Right then.
Woke up this morning feeling like crap: Headache, felt bloated for no reason, was very irritated because Mom woke me up while yelling at Chris (which is why his ass is now grounded from damn near everything he owns), not to mention I got practically
no sleep because I had a nightmare festival last night that I had to "deal with" till I finally did sleep at four in the morning.
Quite irritating, wouldn't you say?
So, I've had a headache all damn day, and I thought that I was just dehydrated (somehow, albeit I've been drinking water like crazy for the past week), so when Chris gave me his whole water bottle at lunch, I thought that would help. It didn't, so I must be plenty hydrated and just have some kind of weird-ass random headache.
Feeling bloated has died down. Guess it was just one of those days where a girl feels fat. = = Wtf. I was very new to that today. S'never happened to me before.
Chris is grounded and I have to babysit him to make sure he doesn't get on the PS2 or i-Pod or anything like that. Thanks, Mom. I haven't had to do that since he put a hole in the wall last summer.
The nightmares have been driving me crazy as of recently. For the past five nights I've gotten little sleep, after summing it all up, all because of those damn things. I am fucking tired. Really, I am. Because of that, I fell asleep (or blacked out, nobody could tell the difference) at least three times in school today. In first period, I thought the room lacked air conditioning, when in all reality it was just
me that was burning up. I told sensei about it, and when she checked my forehead (she's a mother like that I guess) she said it felt like I had a fever. Then right when first class was over, I fainted or blacked out or some shit. Apparently I woke up ten minutes after second period started saying something about fire and caffeine and a couch.
I nodded off in second and third period, but got through that nonetheless.
Fourth period was just as dandy as first. The P.E. locker room seemed more crowded than usual, so I felt claustrophobic and bitched a lot. We're currently playing football, and the only thing I'm actually good at is being center position. I managed to center the ball twice before just collapsing in the middle of the field. I guess I'd been asleep or something, because I had this weird ten-second dream that scared me awake again. Anna, whom I've been telling not to worry about me for the past few days just because I've been losing sleep, got an explanation on all this shit. - - Yet another person to be aware that something's wrong with me. I guess she understood it though. She didn't laugh or joke around, which was good, because I do not want to bitch at her.
So I was late to fifth period because of that. Yay. Well, since that class is horrifically boring, I fell asleep in short bursts quite a bit, only to have Chloe waking me up every five minutes to tell me about her damn book that she's reading. Quite honestly, I don't give a shit today if it's the most awesome book ever.
Lunch time, Chris gave me his water bottle before he headed off to his computers class. = = Yeah, I would have found talking to Anna (I know two of 'em, huzzah) and Alicia more eventful had I not been on the verge of just smacking one of them for being more insanely hyper than usual. I shouldn't complain about that though. Anna finally took notice later on in the lunch hour that something was wrong with me, and she actually ordered me to eat something. So she got Alicia to get some cookies, which I resisted for once, until Anna grabbed my shirt collar and yelled, "EAT, NOW." So, fine, I ate the cookies, bit by bit. I had no appetite, but if it would get her off my back, which it did, then I'd eat 'em.
I tried doing sit-ups afterward like Thursday. I only got to ten before I became exhausted. Then Anna ordered me to sleep. Didn't want to (recall the nightmares), but Sara made me use her lap for a pillow. So I did. For about two seconds, before the bell rang.
You can bet your valuable asses I was pissed.
Sixth period we watched something about how soldiers from Iraq suffer psychologically after they come home from war. You know what's scary? After watching a certain part, I recalled seeing this before. I never had in real life. Because I fucking dreamed about it. The whole thing: The classroom, Case shoving paper down his shirt to amuse me (which only irritated me more), Leslie saying how her dad was fighting in Iraq, using my backpack as a pillow (which I rarely do), and the movie clip itself. So I jumped when I saw all of it and fell right out of my chair. The "ghetto side" of the room (the African-American and Mexican wangsters that never shut up) laughed, of course—like I give a shit—but I obviously scared the hell out of Case, Jay, Leslie, and the teacher.
Surprising how the floor was more comfortable than sitting in that chair. That's what happens when you lose five nights of sleep, Rei. = =
Jannina annoyed the hell out of me on the walk home from the bus stop. You know what? After what she told me, I'm fucking angry, disgusted, and disappointed with her. I won't say what she did, but you can bet your ass I'm going to dog her about it tomorrow.
Or later, depending on where I am.
All this, and I still have a damn headache. I'm still tired. I'm still afraid to go back to sleep after the shit I've seen. I want to sleep, but then I don't.
I got a shitload of homework too. -___-
No. Fuck homework. I'm going to take a nap now.
</crazy rant>
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[--Art--]
Requests, trades, or collabs only. No commission (till I'm eighteen, anyway).
-No, I will not draw you hentai (pornography).
-No, I will not take, "Make it a surprise" when you ask me for something. That's what gift art is for.
-I'd prefer you send me a note if you're going to request art from me.
Requests:
(Closed.)
In waiting:
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Jarrod /
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Fey Wren and Ronad /
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Tengen Toppen Gurren Lagann /
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Ayanami Rei [Neon Genesis Evangelion] /
Trades:
(Maybe.)
In waiting:
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Cheru and Mika /
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Red /
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Picked myself /
Collabs:
(Closed.)
In waiting:
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Freya, the Cat Goddess /
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[--Featured Artist--]
For the month of October:
Photography, realism, digital art, painting—my favorite kind of general artist, and I honestly do not regret watching her. She's got a fantastic gallery and does such a great job on each of her works, so go pay her visit!
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[--Clubs--]
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LEAVING THIS ACCOUNT.
Longing
Gloomy
Hostile
Sociable
